Thursday, August 20, 2009

this is specially for the world's one and only sai sai aka viona . Read slowly , dun read so fast =)

Dear Sai sai aka Viona

Although we did not know each other for long , you made me care so much for you . I don't know why myself , you just have that aura around you which makes me wanna protect you . When your hurt , i'm sad . When your happy , i'm happy for you , you are always in the center of my heart where i had shoved away others and placed you at .

I thought daily of you , eating , on bus , walking , in school , in class . This sentence always came across my mind for don't know how many times . " what is viona doing now ? has she eaten ? is she bored ? how to kill her boredom for her ? what must i do today so that she remains happy ? hmmmm , is there any way to protect her when shes hurt ? " all these stays in my mind , every single day ever since i met you , i yearn for your attention every day .

Even that we have broke couple in audi weeks ago , i never once blame you . I know you have a good reason so i did not like took it to heart . Afterall , your my one and only sai sai , you don't know how important are you to me neither do i know why are you so important to me . It just felt like this to me . I won't want to lose you , it will cause a big turmoil to me , you are already a part of my life .

When you cry , my heart trembles . I'm at loss , i can't do anything for you and i hate myself for that . When you hurt yourself , my heart shatters . I'm just so useless that i can't do anything for you . Except just mere unnesscary words , just thinking of this makes me feel upset .

You are always so vulnerable , i'll brave dangers to protect you from getting hurt . I never want to see any tears or frowns or sadness from your lovely smile that captivated me . That smile of yours , should stay sweet and lovely always . Sometimes , you make me just wanna cab down and find you and hug you tight . I wanna tell you , its ok that i'm here now , i'm always with you , be it mentally or physically(although i want it alot , i cant) .

My dear viona , although all i can do is sms you , i wanna take away your troubles from you also . Each time a boy hurt you , you felt so down , if i could just be there with you , i would hear your complaints , letting you to lean and cry on my shoulder and hugging you tight is all i want .

I maybe someone new to you , but i want to help you stay happy forever and always waiting for you no matter how many millennium it takes . I don't mind waking in the wee hours to receive your calls / smses if your feeling down , i don't mind at all , i don't. Cause your my only sai sai , never will that change or fade away . Even if its one sided , im contented if you know i'm always around for you no matter what you go through .

Loves
Edward
Thursday, July 02, 2009(The date when i first met you)

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