Monday, August 31, 2009

7.42pm now , slpt at 2.16am ydt , woke up at 8.50am , test suppose to start at 9.30am due to me being in group 2 , but aiya nvm la , i go group 4 timing lols , reach bedok zhun zhun 9am , 3 of the 5 idiots arrived already , so wait for the other 2 lor , took bus to school . test , i got the 3rd question , wahh i tell you , its so #@$%^&*( fffff-ffff-ffreaking easy to ME . the rest of the idiots having trouble , then i help them cheat =.= , using my phone then call them from a distance and teaching them plug where and where . then i passed anyway =) . soo bus to amk n bus to home again , reached home stone n game till now . tada~
エドワード || 7:42 PM

Sunday, August 30, 2009

eee today boring day , slpt at 4am yesterday, woke up with viona's "uncle" message =0 , then go bathe n prepare everything , then use comp , smsing viona inbetween , n i thought she sent me the wrong message , so i wait and wait without asking did you send me the wrong message ? god im dumb , just woke up so damn blur . nw 8.21pm ler , msning with viona n watching #rule no.1 , scary siooo >< , tml gt phase test for PAC , hope can make it . wish me luck , bye now =)
エドワード || 8:19 PM

Saturday, August 29, 2009

yesterday went to ton , i totally buay tong , and that viona offline without telling me , i wait 2 hrs for her to come bak online lor =( , thought she dc , ahh well nvm , then at lan shop with friends play till 2 plus , walked to newton 24hr food centre , ate hokkien mee and went to newton station there sit sit , then the stairs there very stuffy , then went to the bus stop there to slp . i lie still on there can feel insects crawling on me , eee gross lor i tell you . then i damn shagg also , then went bak the stairs n lie on my arm . then those 2 suddenly say wan drink water , then went bak to 24 hr food centre to buy water , while drinking , i lie on the table n slp , totally cmi =/ , then those 2 talk talk talk till 6.20am , then walked to newton mrt again n took train , reached home at 7am , bath n slp till sis annoy me wake up at 1plus i think , then online , play some games , audi with viona also till now . she gt one more new nickname liao , "dummy " wahahaa , ok im not feeling so good since morning , end post here , bye
エドワード || 6:48 PM

Friday, August 28, 2009

nw 5.24pm , phase test in the morning , sibei easy . lucky i took photos of last week PLC's assignment , totally the same as today's phase test , wahahahahha , den bluetooth to the other 2 idiots in class to let them copy . im so good ^^ , then sw bought stormking today , so good sio , help us roll n give us smoke =0 , he say he wan smoke finish the whole pack today cause dun want bring home . thennn went to lifeskill department to pass up my photocopy of passport and head home . reached home n stone till now , viona currently feeling down , aiyer breaks my heart lahs . dunno what i can do for her loh =( .


going out later again , ton i guess . as usual =.= although i dun wan go =p . but cannot dun go . blog till here byes

エドワード || 5:24 PM

Thursday, August 27, 2009

ok , the piggy pig pig sai sai yun yun vi vi na na viona wants to see something on this blog , so im here posting . today woke up 6.30am took train at 7.20am reached bedok at 8am , i also dunno why today train so fast . ok reached class at 8.45am , whole group tio punish for being late , 15 push up , i gei gei only , just knee down nvr do lol . wahahah im so zai i know , then practiace for monday's phase test , tommorow got another phase test , sure fail liao lor ,i dun even know how to do. then reached home early to stone cus PE cancelled due to cher's laziness tsk , im not even lazy like cher lor :D , then reached home to stone . sian-ded , den went to kill some ppl online and nw im here blogging . bored like shyt . then no one pei me , machiam loner~

hope i will do well in tommorow phase test

エドワード || 8:37 PM

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

エドワード || 9:01 PM

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

today is a wierd day .. i slpt at 2am plus ydt after finish blogging , woke up at 8.30am, i dunno why they love to off my aircon to wake me up , piss off man=.= .

reached bedok at 10.18am , they waiting for me and sw ler . in the end sw made us late half and hour , cher show us her dulan face we mai hiew only , i guai kia + innocent . so i tel them to diam lol =)

as today no cpg lessons , we went era again , play dota , i own-ed them siaaaa ^^ . then played audi cc4 and beat up then went back to school for maths again . i slp thru out the maths lesson cus cher marking test paper , i dun wan do the revision work also , lazinesss~

then i got back my paper , disappointed =( 66% only T_T . next tuesday got retest , i wan do better! reached home , msn with viona till now , shes watching MVs while i hack my game >_< .apparently , we got a deal , she going to play water with me , and the deal is if i hug her = she shout molest , if i hold her hand = she shout . so i told her , nvm la play water at most throw you into water only . then i came up with this lame saying , " if you love someone , throw her into the water , if you really love someone , toss her into the water" :D

but she too smart la of cus know that saying made up by me one , so i gave her a choice , toss or hug , she chose not to go . WTH! =(( then she want send bryan to gay with me when go play water . lawls.

nw 10.31pm ler , tml nid wake up at 6am . siann , then tml no cpg again i think going era again . ahhh waste more and more money =((

エドワード || 10:24 PM

if i told you , im jealous that so many boys are around you , what will you do . i mean , im not even your boyfriend and how am i suppose to have the rights to be jealous ? i know action speaks louder than words , but the only thing i can provide you now are words till my holiday arrives . you say you dun stand a single space in my heart , i'll tell you now , you are one important role in my life which i believed i said it till your probably sick of seeing this . i have no other girls to care about except you . you always stand in the center of my life , never will i .. never never never stop caring about you . i know that everyday you message me in the morning , i feel so happy that i have a wake up sms from you . i know that i never once sent you a wake up sms . i know that all , i don't mind smsing you a wake up sms , call . i really don't mind , and this is not sweet talking you , and i can only prove it by doing it for you every morning if you allow me to . i seriously don't mind at all , you are the last person that i would ever want you to shed tears for me (if you had) , i know i don't deserve you , im a jerk . i have words than actions for you . tell me what to prove to you , i'll do it within my means . i remember you every single minute , second , hour , all day long . i want to have a never ending sms with you despite your single word messages , i don't mind it at all . usually people send me a one word message i wun even bother to reply or whatever , but you are different . i reply all your single message because your important to me , i don't want to lose you . each time you gave a single text message , i know your in a foul/bored mood , i want to change all your single text message into a sentence long message . i don't even know i changed according to you but one thing for sure , we are drifting apart and i know its my fautlt and the rope between us gets longer and longer , if only i could pull back myself to you . i don't mind , calling you at least one a day on the phone to chat with you . give me this chance , pick up my calls when i call you , i wanna hear your voice .. i know all these i typed seemed sweet talk to you and i don't expect you to buy this . but this are all how i felt , i wanna tell you seriously that no matter what i do , im always thinking of you , if you sneezed , probably thats me talking / thinking about you . if i tell you , i do not know that you cried , you will be probably fed up with me , if time could turn back , i want to meet you 1-3 years eariler , get closer and closer to you , never let you get hurt . i know all these i typed till now makes no sense , i don't know what im doing either .. im feeling down too , each time you say you hate me , it felt like thousand ants biting my heart , i don't want you to hate me , i just want you to be normal to me .. i don't need too much of your love , i don't want your hatred towards me . i love you .. and again this are mere words i can only provide . i never once blamed you for anything you did towards me , cause utimately i know its all due to a fault of mine , wrong words i said m wrong things i done at the wrong time . i regretted this . you are really the first girl , that i ever sms/care/love/blog and others . im shocked myself that i had fallen this deep towards you ...


VSYT, im a jerk but i truly care about you ..

エドワード || 12:28 AM

Monday, August 24, 2009

im gonna blog at midnight , dun feel like blogging now .





if time could turn back

エドワード || 5:55 PM

Saturday, August 22, 2009

slpt at 3am yesterday , woke up at 10.30am and went j8 today , reach home at 12pm plus , using comp till 2-3plus then go stone on bed , snowy sleeping beside me also , snoring so loud . smsed piggy in between and was very very bored .. nw 9.32pm , dunno what to do , hope today can slp more than 12 hrs
エドワード || 9:29 PM

Friday, August 21, 2009

im here to update this dull plain black and white blog cause viona aka sai sai aka piggy aka yun yun aka pigsy(new one yay!) wants to read something =)

i slpt at 12am plus ydt and woke up at 7.30am , i was suppose to meet those idiots at 8.30am lol , i went out at 8.05am lols , mom drove me to j8 and i took train , apparently they arrived already and were waiting for me ><

smsed viona aka sai sai aka piggy aka yun yun aka pigsy whole day , currently shes not in a good mood , if life were magical , i would use teleportation to appear beside her n hug her >< . oh well , what to do ? i aint superman and this aint any magical world , its a cruel and realistic world.

viona aka sai sai aka piggy aka yun yun aka pigsy cheer up soon ok ? hurts me to see you feel down .

love you till i die

エドワード || 7:52 PM

Thursday, August 20, 2009

this is specially for the world's one and only sai sai aka viona . Read slowly , dun read so fast =)

Dear Sai sai aka Viona

Although we did not know each other for long , you made me care so much for you . I don't know why myself , you just have that aura around you which makes me wanna protect you . When your hurt , i'm sad . When your happy , i'm happy for you , you are always in the center of my heart where i had shoved away others and placed you at .

I thought daily of you , eating , on bus , walking , in school , in class . This sentence always came across my mind for don't know how many times . " what is viona doing now ? has she eaten ? is she bored ? how to kill her boredom for her ? what must i do today so that she remains happy ? hmmmm , is there any way to protect her when shes hurt ? " all these stays in my mind , every single day ever since i met you , i yearn for your attention every day .

Even that we have broke couple in audi weeks ago , i never once blame you . I know you have a good reason so i did not like took it to heart . Afterall , your my one and only sai sai , you don't know how important are you to me neither do i know why are you so important to me . It just felt like this to me . I won't want to lose you , it will cause a big turmoil to me , you are already a part of my life .

When you cry , my heart trembles . I'm at loss , i can't do anything for you and i hate myself for that . When you hurt yourself , my heart shatters . I'm just so useless that i can't do anything for you . Except just mere unnesscary words , just thinking of this makes me feel upset .

You are always so vulnerable , i'll brave dangers to protect you from getting hurt . I never want to see any tears or frowns or sadness from your lovely smile that captivated me . That smile of yours , should stay sweet and lovely always . Sometimes , you make me just wanna cab down and find you and hug you tight . I wanna tell you , its ok that i'm here now , i'm always with you , be it mentally or physically(although i want it alot , i cant) .

My dear viona , although all i can do is sms you , i wanna take away your troubles from you also . Each time a boy hurt you , you felt so down , if i could just be there with you , i would hear your complaints , letting you to lean and cry on my shoulder and hugging you tight is all i want .

I maybe someone new to you , but i want to help you stay happy forever and always waiting for you no matter how many millennium it takes . I don't mind waking in the wee hours to receive your calls / smses if your feeling down , i don't mind at all , i don't. Cause your my only sai sai , never will that change or fade away . Even if its one sided , im contented if you know i'm always around for you no matter what you go through .

Loves
Edward
Thursday, July 02, 2009(The date when i first met you)

エドワード || 7:44 PM

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

today , shag day for me . woke up at 6.30am went out at 7.10am reached bedok at 8.05am , wait for those idiots till 8.45 . reach class at 9am . late for 1 hr but less than half the class . today cpg test , everyone using thumb drive and ebuddy to send the answers . i finished first , all correct i guess .

exams in 2 weeks time . i havn study yet , need to study soon . smsed viona whole day , she bored whole day . oh well , yes i know i suck , bye


current mood : 2/5







can i love someone normally?

エドワード || 6:42 PM

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

im feeling so down , any i found my maths book today . and i got 56 marks for my maths test , cannot believe it.. i guess my theory will be worst . im not in the best of the mood and im feeling and thinking so negatively today ..

wish there was someone i can scream out or complain to .








i always try to hide how i feel













im suffering from this pain , no one understands hw i feel .
there is no one that will understand me

エドワード || 6:39 PM

Monday, August 17, 2009

today is a fucked up day , first , i only slpt for 3-4 hrs after viona sms me at 6 plus , i toss-ed and turn for 6 bloody hours . ok then went to bedok , on the train read thru maths and theory . waited for those idiots and head to class . theory test , complete sucks , i think i get only 26/40 marks . totally bullshit . then theory finish , went math test , also another bull shit one , put my maths book under the table wanted to copy , but 2 fucking teacher came in n spotcheck hair . how to copy ? then must turn and look around ask for ans. zzz , then worst of all , after going out of school , reached the bus stop , suddenly remember i forget to put my maths book in my bag . was like wtf ? siao liao la , how to study for nxt week prelim n coming exams ? comfirm lost one ley the book , fuck lah . then reached amk inter , 88 just ran off nb . then must wait 8 mins for the next one . reached home , bathe , msn , audi to find viona . now 7.12pm , totally dunno what to do . zzzzz


dear viona ,

how are you ? are you fine ? i missed you during school.

not just miss , is miss alot , ok i love you too

Regards / Sincerely / Faithfully / Loves
Edward





when we di siao your bryan kor , you noticed that i can talk almost like you ? it proves that what ever small detail you do/say/type i put it in my heart . it proves how much i love /care for you =)


エドワード || 7:08 PM

Sunday, August 16, 2009

7.16pm nw , woke up at 1.30pm go bathe and online . no one online pei me talk . den sms viona wake up to pee , but she wake up and pee long long ago . lol , then sms with her till 6 plus and shes finally back . as usual , she kept wanting me to die and stuff . getting super super used to it soon . i guess. later get forced to eat steam boat , no time study and lazy to study. tommorrow have theory and maths test . gawd , i think im gonna use codename "bluetooth" again . x.x
エドワード || 7:16 PM

what time now ? 3.17am , cant slp . slpt whole day and not feeling so tired now , sai sai is asleep now , gosh i miss her =(( . bryan also pigging , im so lonely ~ dota-ing with bro now . later afternoon blog again i guess.
エドワード || 3:16 AM

Saturday, August 15, 2009

look at the time now , 6.51am , its a last post before i go to bed . having a urge to sleep forever now .. but right now , i need to blog this out . i been wondering what should i blog in the evening till now . and i had finally thought through .

after what happened ydt , i asked myself , what am i suppose to do without you ? im too used having you smsing me daily . i don't want to go back to my old boring life like before . i need you badly , i swear i can say i think of you more than i think of other things in a day . you are more than an important role in my life .. and i don't want this to disappear ..

even though i sweet talk-ed you , its more than mere words , i typed it thru my feelings for you . unknowningly , i had loved you so much .. i don't want to lose you , you meant almost the whole world to me . when your sad , i feel so helpless , i cant cheer you up yet at the same time , i wan to comfort you ..

you had being the first girl i ever cared for so much . i never even give such concerns to my ex like i did to you . and it truly proves one point , your that missing part in my life , i found you .. dun go please..

i don't want to lose you , i cant imagine the days without you after weeks we did so much things together . i want you to maintain your beautiful smile .. i wan to hug you .. i wan to .. .. love you .. as someone dear and important to me ..

don't leave me please.. im sorry
エドワード || 6:50 AM

Friday, August 14, 2009

give me one more chance , im really sorry . i over-reacted and made you upset . i dun wan to lose you , you are very important to me .. give me a chance , i want to make it up to you . im truly truly sorry for what i have done .. forgive me =( , im sincerely sorry . i don't know what to do without you .
エドワード || 6:52 PM

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

back from school , watched latest episode of bleach , tears to tiara and dragonball kai . then saw a msn pop out , lets guess whose it from ? ... ....

ya la you got it right , its viona of cus >< , had practical test today . chicken feet but minus 4 marks due to "hit rubber" =.= , its like wth , you give me a circuit box that i had to fix myself while others had fixed circuit box and i tio this minus 4 marks . arghh , worst part . i knock into the board and my phone in my pocket hit something hard and the screen spoil. then suddenly piggy sms me , then i was like eh wtf . how to reply =.= ? then i keep complaining to my friends , eh fuck la how la sia , i wan sms de ley . they keep gg-fied whatever whatever . i sian diao la . then i found out , i can press my phone whn its black . and i managed to play songs from the "black phone" ahh , pestering my mom to get me a new phone now . if she does , its great , but i have one thing in concern , i feel my sim card do not have my contacts in it . cause why ? this current black phone sucks to the max. oh well , i'll see how it goes =( , how to sms tml T_T napha test is tomorrow also , i feel so sian-ded , which means i will be darn tired tomorrow . and its not even friday =.= , good news is after 9sep , holiday till next year , woots .i think, but i need work during nov or dec or both . gg-fied , means less time for piggy , she will comfirm be happy cause theres less one person bothering her during that time x.x .


gasp below






a1232158m161462 216416i s$#%^)(@#!u(*#&$)!#p#$(*)!@#p()*)(!#o41654s@#@#!#%^T46343169e t@#!#!%%@!#o %)(!_@#%loSDASDA1635843v3212%@!e $!@#@y12318o$!@#!#@!u ? w3165413.1h@#@!#a$%!%^&&t @#!@%s6%@!@h@#!@#o%%%254u549843lDDDASDd *(&$)(!@#I i$($_! d)@))$%o5641 ? i f2316946e#!@%%!@eSDA)($!l 329+s@#!@%o u321654n3.1930e255a@#!@sGASDy 21646.a@#%!nFASFAd 32167u2@577n#$%^&*(c)(*@#)(!@o32196m@#!@%f^^$%@!o351469r@^!@#t321689a@!#!@%b2164896l%Q@#!e !@)(*)^%!@a36164n3.0543d @$!@%^^!2t#%!@#e3216351r%%%%!@#3r3216584i0.216346b$@!%!lFAS#e.

Publish Post

エドワード || 6:26 PM

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

no fcking mood , hate my fcking short hair now . got caught and went to caught , trim eh trim trim trim , trim till machiam like cuckold .





why did you slash again ,i know you been thru alot for some time , but .. nvm i wun say anymore . hais

エドワード || 9:14 PM

Monday, August 10, 2009

im keeping it to myself from this time on till i decided not to .
エドワード || 11:03 PM

went clubbing till 3.30am plus , during that time , saw 4 gays and 3 fights . they fight till damn nice , should have took a video camera there . the gays imagine if they are real woman , then it will be called sexy , but the way they dance are sexy enough , then got some malay idiots purposely go grind one of them to attract attention . i was there stunned and laughing with my bro , i was like wth ? lol . after that , drank 2 jug of coke during that time , one jug cost 15 dollars x.x , lucky not i pay , gt abt 7-8 people sharing the jug , less than 5 min drink finish liao .

when dancing , again those malay idiots wanna shove and push and push , make me dao pek chek . then bro's the female frens all wan tio grind by strangers lol . then suddenly one of his female friend tell him to protect michelle . then my bro step innocent dun wan grind girl , then he whisper to me . "oie protect michelle " , i was like " what ? huh ?" then he say again and slap my butt , then i was like ohhhhhhh .

so went to sorta of "protect" her , apprently got one tall fat guy with a ugly piercing at his lips wanna grind michelle . his hands were like , raising to hold her hips but put down and put up again . machiam ai mai ai mai lols . then i went to "protect" lah . no ill-intention anyway . i also innocent , dunno how grind x.x

after clubbing session , took one smoke from shi hao , apprently their group so big lor , 20+ ppl ? wtf , lazy go slack with such a big group of ppl , so went with my bro's de group. went mac till 4plus before leaving to slack , they were talking abt that guy wanting to grind michelle , lol then they came up with ugly = ? , handsome = ?

i overhead them saying ugly = the guy who wan grind michelle lols.then after that , walked to bugis mac and slacked there till 6.20am , wanted to take first train , then the gate at bugis juction opens at 7am , then was like arghhh , must walk one big round to take the train .took the train and reached home about 7 plus . bath-ed and slp till bryan sms me at 1 plus , i still want slp de lor . but nvm , cannot get back to slp after that . so woke up , bath-ed . on comp , stare at screen for 25mins before bro ask me go out . i dun wan go out one , i wan to wait for someone de ..

den he nag nag nag , then go out lor , met adrain and went to j8's arcade . one play maximum tune , one play drum , i alone there standing , walking around , smsing only one person . ahh well , no ones plays my type of game in arcade anyway . or theres no right person to play with me . i wish i had someone i love by myself so i could enjoy playing with her . but oh well , im a loner x.x

now im home , blogging . school's tommorow , just thinking of it bores me out . haisss , what should i do ??











good for you if you know how to interpret this below ,





i.t@s a$l6l b@u5t f@o%o^li@sh t$h^o@ug%hNts oSf m@i%ne , i@t shSo#u^ld h^a#v@e ne4v4e5r s4t1a3rt7e8d . w6h0i1c0h c2au7s8es m3e t7hi4s wi9e43rd a0nd u1nc7o0m3fo7r9t8ab1l3e p7a5i9n a1n2d fe3el7i5n2gs . i s~h$o@uNld'nt e+v(e=n t2r#y t4o l^o#v&e s#o4m^eBo@ne . i@t3s a%l@l o^n&e-s^id(ed

エドワード || 6:50 PM

Sunday, August 9, 2009

went to east coast today again . with my bro and his stead . wanted to emo at the beach while they play together but since you asked me not to , i didn't . instead i made this pictures with my fingers













































now im home , going out soon in 45 mins time i guess . clubbing , and ton .










saw this poor old uncle slping in the bus , machiam like die ardy ><























if you need me , i will be here
i dun wan you to buy a penknife again , cause when i *scratch* myself with penknife , your heart hurts, imagine what will happen to my heart if you did it to yourself again and again, i bet my heart will shatter to pieces.
i don't want you to get hurt , i dun wan you to cry . you meant almost the whole world to me ..

エドワード || 8:44 PM

Saturday, August 8, 2009

i knew this day will come and i knew i won't be able to satisfy you . after all , its all cyber love relationship . im someone unimportant , sorry i won't be able to keep my promise . my 520 stars for you in bottles . im unable to keep that promise , truely sorry .

im so glad i knew you weeks ago , you made me happy during that time , never did i experienced such feelings before . its not love , its sense of comfort when i talk / sms / play with you . makes me feels so myself .. its kinda cute and funny when i recalled and both of us did had h1n1 and being called h1n1 boy / girl . its amusing .

now your with your new boyfriend , i never heard of him before but i don't want you to experience any unhappiness . so just go well with him , like i said , i never blamed you . don't feel bad about it . its just .. .. ... cyber ? i guess . take care now , i will be bloggin daily if i can =) with this blog you given to me =)

you should update daily also , so i can read your blog =) and i hope this has change nothing between us =) , i hope you also will sms me like before ><

p.s / im always around when you need someone . no matter what the time is , you can always count on me for sms/call . or even more ...


エドワード || 10:06 PM

woke up at 1pm , went out and came bak shortly , its 4.32pm now according to my computer's clock , i have nothing to do . im super bored . no program today for me , probably just stoning in front of the comp till the day ends and i go back to slp . my left hand basically looks as if its rotting right now . plastered 7 plaster to my left leg , oh god . tomorrow going clubbing i guess .

























it felt so much different.

エドワード || 4:32 PM

Friday, August 7, 2009

back from east coast , today is a sucky day , found back my e-zlink at school , apparently someone had given it to the school and the school called me to collect it . reach home at about 2plus , victor called and asked me out , went to amk hub to find him and his gf and his gf de god-sis . they dunno where to go , den suddenly decided to went east coast . so took bus 13 at bishan and went east coast . during riding , i got lost in thought and distracted , my cap flew behind me , i look back and lost control of my bicycle , fell to the side , had minor abrasion on my right chest , but my left hand and leg kena more . this are the pictures





































































apparently , my left palm , i can feel the 2nd layer of skin , the first layer has been something like scratched off due to the friction on the road . it felt so raw , numb , and i could feel my heart beat at my palm. ok im back to bath and blog , after that im off to town , find andrain , his bdae , he and his brothers drinking . maybe i'll get drunk , i wanna forget about today. during bathing , the pain in the knee and hand got so painful that it became numb move a lil and its like a thousand ants chewing your flesh . ahh nvm , im a loner . applying some zambuk and plaster nw , going out soon . byes




i don't blame you , hope i'll get over it soon , last as long as possible with him =)

エドワード || 9:50 PM

Thursday, August 6, 2009

today , woke up with dear viona's message . slp and msg till 7am , class starts at 8pm . but didn't care , gt at least 45min grace to be late >< , reached bedok at 8.30am , waited for yw and sw till 8.45am , then got good news . Mr Lee nvr come then Mr quake or how you spell his surname was teaching the lesson for Mr Lee , then other 2 idiots came shortly , yw received a call/sms from bryan , thats why we know Mr Lee nvr come =)

then we discuss , wan pon ma ? then i psycho them , eh go era la , dun go PLC , then yw was like , aiya dunno la then he give this '><' stressed face . then we wait for wh cus we decided not to go PLC . then yw tell me , "attendance how ?" i tell him " aiya , dun nid care la , our attendance so good, only these 4 idiots gt sucky attendance" then he say , ya hor . then waited for wh idiot for 30mins , then we went interchange , then they decided to go eat , walk one round back to the coffee shop.eat eat till 10am plus , then went to take Bus 40 to era , reach there liao , wan to top up . the xiao jie sleeping in the chair at the counter , then me and ah yi tried waking her up , then was like sian diao , cannot wake up one . then i shake shake her also no use , then i ask ah yi to shake . he go tap as if tapping for money from someone LOL , also nvr wake up .

then we waited like few secs , i chua tio , she suddenly shoot up and sit down rubbing her face ><
then play till 1pm , we took bus back to school . suay thing happened , want to tap card for attendance , i found out my lanyard lost , WITH MY E-ZLINK INSIDE!!! i was like zzzzz.. sian diao and i thought how mafan it will be .. then i kept complaing " eh fuck la , lost liao , zzzzzzzzzzzz" then those idiots said " hohoho , gong hei lei" feel like slapping them lol .

then reached LLA , mark-ed attendance and found out CHER asked us to do e-learning . gawd.. of all things , why e-learning ? =.= so we marked attendance and went to MLC(multi learning center) i no e-zlink cannot book comp =(( so i was deciding to share . but reach the comp there , i go kope one person's comp , apparently no one using it , so i use lor =x

spent abt 2-3hrs at there i think . damn sian , only me yw and des do , the rest either forgotten their acc pw or lazy to do , so we do ourselve , mai hiew them . zai right ?

after finishing , head home , emo on train , cause i alone =( , i slpt on the train from tanah merah to city hall , im totally exhausted . then stand on train from city hall to bishan , wtfzxzxz , mrt gt rule say must let tired people like me seat right ? stupid singaporean no sense of consideration =x

then reached bishan , got some help for my lost e-zlink , head home , on comp , sayang dog , went audi to look for piggy , but she offline , so went msn to find her . everyday go msn , sure check if she online first not , i feel like a stalker >< , currently msn-ing with her ...




can i end it all ?

エドワード || 6:11 PM

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

bak from school early . im gg-fied , my maths test , dunno whether can pass not even when i did abt 96% of the questions. as for my EI-T , i drew the diagram and learnt about my mistake shortly after i handed it up . practical for the test is next week . piggy at west mall now .. im feel so .. bored..

what should i do ?

エドワード || 3:45 PM

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

mmm , sleeping half way , got a delightful message from piggy . piggy , i never blamed you , i love you sooooo much to blame you x.x oh well , met yw alone at bedok then head off to school . slpt during EI-T class >_> too boring ler . then went for lunch and back to CPG , totally boredd without piggy , cause she nvr reply , why ? cus she slping lah of cus , if not how she earn the nick name PIGGY . then had maths lesson , o ya tml gt test also , sure fail liao i only know how do 50% of the chapter =.= blame myself for failing unwell during the lesson when this chapter was first taught . phase test for EI-P is tommorrow also , i dunno whether can pass not >_< , hopefully can bah ..


Overall mood : 1.5/5 , why ? spoilt by someone .



labels : each time a boy breaks with you , after a week , your found with a new boyfriend hand in hand . you think you very pretty ? those boys had their eyes stapled just like i did when i was with you . you disgust me

エドワード || 6:54 PM

Monday, August 3, 2009

i always thought i understood you but i was wrong . i know nothing of what your going through even though i foolishly tell myself i do . i dunno how to make you feel better , im bad at comforting people and i dun wan to worsen your mood . im bloggin to tell you that , i failed to communicate with you , i failed my duty as your cpl . im sorry , i dun know what to do , i really really want you to be happy like before .

Only wanting to see your beautiful smiles , Never wanting to see your cries is what i truly hope will come true . i failed to do what i can for you .. im at loss , cheer up .. your sadness is my sadness , your happiness is my happiness . even though we knew each other for less than 2 month . i strongly believe i could connect thru you as the time passes . if the connection were to be broken , i will be gladly to get hurt to mend the broken connection . i will never want to lose this connection for you are someone i strongly cared about . i never had these feelings before until i met you . i maybe someone of unworthly importance , but i dun mind , i dun care , all i know and i want is you to be happy , never be sad .. i want to protect you , i want you to smile always , i want to cherish you , i want to understand you for your someone that i felt of utmost importance.


Cheer up Viona , i dun mind you ranting to me , i dun mind you scolding me , i dun mind you ignoring me , i dun mind being your substitute, i just ... ... ...want you to be happy when i first met you .. that memory is worth keeping in my heart. for you made me care for someone(you) so strongly that i never did for anyone before .

Cheer up please ...







i'm sorry , i failed..

エドワード || 10:05 PM

back from school just , before went home , bought 20k cash . bought something for piggy in audi .hopefully she get used to it .

overall mood 3.5/5 . nothing really interest or made me happy for some time now . still very vexed over stuffs . cant seem to get rid of whats on my mind . i need a clear mind , i need to have fun , as in real fun . what should i do ?

quote : even if happiness forget you a lil , never completely forget about it .

i wish i could turn back time to when i have no troubles or worries =(
how good will it be , when i have someone by my side , listening to my ranting and complaints about how life sucks . i sound like a girl now . tsk , cant believe these kind of words are coming out from me .

should i turn my heart into steel ? i guess not ...


anyway , Im destined to be tortured and bully by sai sai D:
is that a good thing ?
it will be yes to her
to me ?
i have the answer , the answer is i dun mind at all =) why ? shes my cpl and a dear to me.






p/s . i cant stand you when you lie about such things and gaining sympathy from my friends cause you made me feel like a villain and you look more fucked up to me now when i know what are you plotting now . this is what i want to say even when you dun read this , you fucking know who you are .

エドワード || 7:29 PM

Sunday, August 2, 2009

im bloggin first , if nt piggy aka sai sai will be nagging me liao . she asked me to go die today abt 5-7 times .

overall my mood was just 3/5 . the thing that pissed me off today was that i found out my ex wanna hack my audi and delete my items . what the fuk , she said inside my acc , everthing were hers ? come on . i bought so many things for her and she said this kind of thing ? im super irritated + the super headache i got from last night ton .

piggy so zai , so many boys jio her de . . . gt 13-20 years old de boys , ai zai! then msg also can msg so many people , if i msg so many people , i will probably cant wait to get rid of them and sms only 1-2 person .

why am i saying this ? perhaps im just plain jealous of piggy >< too much boys sms her ler =(( . oh well , she dun even need me to bother about these , she probably will just let me be . continue being jealous ...

school's tml in the noon , sai sai's sch in the morning , hope she sms me in the morning to give me a morning sms . thats all now bye

エドワード || 10:07 PM

Saturday, August 1, 2009

im stressed out , too much eff-ing things on my mind liao . results me in not sleeping well or maybe i did sleep well . i need to let off steam , i need to do some calming and relaxing and less tense .

piggy is having a hard time . pity i dun understand her well enough to feel her heart or what shes going through . i really wish i could turn back time , met her earlier , feel and hear what shes going through , be there for her , listen to her , comfort her . but oh well . piggy , be happy >_<

shld i go out in the evening , i dun even need go there liao . what should i do ?


エドワード || 12:55 PM